my love story

MY LOVE STORY

            WHEN I WAS IN HIGH SCHOOL I MET A BOY NAMED EARNEST AT MOUNTAIN VIEW COLLEGE. HE WAS APART OF MY STUDY GROUPS. HE WAS A REAL COOL PERSON.I BEGAN TO SPEAK WITH HIM ON  OCCASSION TO FIND OUT THAT HE HAD A GIRLFRIEND NAMED CRISTAL THAT WOULD BE COMING TO MV AND HE WANTED US TO HOOK UP SO SHE COULD HAVE SOME FRIENDS WHEN SHE CAME. AND WE DID THAT.  SOON AFTER ME AND CRISTAL FELL OUT  BECAUSE OF THE ASSUMPTION OF ME BEING MORE THAN A FRIEND. I WAS A LIL UPSET BUT MAN TOLD ME THAT SHE DOES THAT TO ALL FEMALES SO I WASNT TO OFFENEDED. DURING THIS TIME I WAS GOING WITH QUINN. ME AND QUINN WERE FALLING OUT BECAUSE IN THE BACK OF MY MIND I FELT LIKE HE WAS CHEATING. NOT ONLY THAT BUT HIS NIECE TOLD ME AT SCHOOL THAT HE WAS.  RIGHT BEFORE PROM ME AND QUINN BROKE UP BECAUSE HE STOOD ME UP BUT I WENT TO PROM ANY WAY. I CARED FOR QUINN ALOT AND LOVED HIM VERY MUCH.  WHEN I GOT TO PROM I WAS A BIT SAD BUT I WAS FOLLOWED WITH A WONDERFUL PROM THE FOLLOWING WEEKEND WITH A ELEMENTARY SWEETHEART NAMED CHRISTOPHER GIBBS. I CALLED HIM RANDOMLY ONE DAY AND WE BECAME GOOD FRIENDS. AT THAT TIME HE HAD A GIRLFRIEND. I WASNT SURE IF CHRIS WANTED ME IN THAT WAY SO I BEGAN TO TALK TO HIS FRIEND KANARD WHICH I REGRET EVERY DAY OF MY LIFE. LOL.  WHEN I LEFT FOR CHICAGO I BEGAN TO TALK TO THIS DUDE NAMED GHOST ME AND HIM KICKED IT FOR A WHILE AND HAD SEX ON A FEW OCCASIONS. WELL OUT OF THIS FEW I GOT PREGNANT.  GHOST DIDNT WANT THE CHILD AND ENDED UP GETTING A ABORTION.  WHEN I GOT HOME FOR THE CHRISTMAS BREAK I GOT REAL CLOSE WITH CHRIS. HE TOLD ME THAT IF HE COULDNT HELP ME WITH THE MONEY TO ABORT THE BABY HE WOULD HELP ME TAKE CARE OF IT. SOMETHING DIDNT SIT RIGHT WITH ME ABOUT HIM TAKING CARE OF SOMEBODY ELSE’S CHILD SO I WENT AHEAD AND GOT THE ABORTION.  LATER ON ME AND CHRIS INTIATED GETTING TOGETHER. I TOLD HIM THAT I WASNT FULLY OVER GHOST. WHEN I GOT BACK TO CHICAGO GHOST HAD TO LEAVE COLUMBIA BECAUSE OF HIS GRADES AND MONEY.  THOUGH I WAS THROUGH WITH GHOST I WASNT THROUGH. MY HEART WAS DONE BUT MY MIND WASNT.  EITHER WAY IT GOES WHEN I THOUGHT I WAS COMPLETELY OVER HIM I CALLED CHRIS AND WE HOOKED UP.

            ME AND CHRIS HAD A ROUGH TIME WHEN WE FIRST HOOKED UP BUT WE MOVED THROUGH THOSE. IT WAS BASICALLY FIGURING OUT WHAT EACH OTHERS BOUNDARIES WERE. THAT NEXT SCHOOL YEAR I TRANSFERRED TO SAM HOUSTON. THAT WAS THE POINT I FIGURED OUT I WAS IN LOVE WITH HIM. HE WAS THE MAN I ALWAYS DREAMED OF. THAT YEAR WAS THE BEST BECAUSE WE SPENT SO MUCH TIME TOGETHER. WE HAD SO MANY LAUGHS AND SMILES. AND SOME OF THE BEST SEX YOU COULD EVER IMAGINE. I BEGAN HANGING WITH A CROWD MY SECOND SEMESTER THAT I CAN SAY I BEGAN TO MAKE ME ACT DIFFERENTLY WITH HIM AND HE DIDNT LIKE IT ALL.  AFTER ALL THAT WAS OVER WE BEGAN TO BECOME CLOSER. CHRIS HAD A VERY GOOD INTUTION ABOUT PPL. SOMETHING I DIDNT HAVE. SO I CAN SAY THAT HE WAS A SECOND EYE FOR ME WHEN I COME ACROSS REAL FRIENDS OR FONIES. THAT SUMMER WHICH IS THIS SUMMER STARTED OFF OKAY. WE HAD SOME BUMPY ROADS BUT LIKE ALWAYS WE OVER CAME THEM. I BEGAN TO WANT A BABY. CHRIS USE TO SAY IF WE HAVE A BABY EVERTHING WOULD BE OKAY. HE USE TO TALK ABOUT FINANCIALLY HOW WE WOULD BE OKAY. IT SOUNDED PRETTY BUT I STILL HAD DOUBT. I FINALLY TOLD HIM. WHAT MY DOUBT WAS ABOUT. I DIDNT WANT HIM TO B THE ONLY PUTTING IN ON A BABY. WANTED TO BE THEIR FOR MY CHILD FINANCIALLY AS WELL. I DIDNT WANT TO HAVE TO TELL MY BABY. TO ASK YOUR DADDY. I DONT HAVE IT.  AFTER ALL OF THAT EVERYTHING WAS COOL.  THEIR WAS ONE NIGHT ME AND CHRIS HAD SEX AND HE DIDNT PULL OUT. AFTER THAT…I WAS VERY NERVOUS THE NEXT COUPLE OF WEEKS. I NEVER WENT TO THE DOCTOR TO FIND OUT ANYTHING BUT I HAD A STRONG MIND THAT I WAS PREGNANT.  I STARTED GETTING SOME DOUBT ABOUT HIS HOMEGURL ISLEE AFTER I MET HER MY DOUBT SETTLED AND IT WASNT A PROBLEM ANY MORE BECAUSE I MET HER LIKE I DID ASHLEY. AND ANY FRIEND OF CHRIS’S IS A FRIEND OF MINE.  ONE NIGHT AFTER ME AND CHRIS GOT HOME FROM GOING OUT WITH HIS FRIENDS I HAD A CONVERSATION WITH ISLEE. THE NEXT DAY I ASSUME THAT THAT THEY CONVERSED. WHAT EVER CHRIS HEARD WAS MISLEAD BUT HE DIDNT LIKE IT. AND DID WHAT I FEARED MOST AND THAT WAS KICK ME OUT. AGAIN! I TRIED TO TO TALK TO HIM ABOUT IT BUT HE SIMPLY SAID HE WASNT HAPPY.  AFTER WE BROKE UP. I CONSTANTLY PURSUED HIM AND GOT A NEGATIVE RESPONSE. I REGRET ALOT OF THINGS BUT THEY HELP ME LEARN IF I EVER GET THE CHANCE TO LOVE HIM AGAIN. I WILL START ON A NEW SLATE WITH HIM. I WILL RE INTRODUCE MYSELF AND WE WILL B FRIENDS AS WELL AS LOVERS. WE WILL PUT THE PAST BEHIND US. AND LIVE FROM THE DAY WE GOT TOGETHER ON FORWARD.  THE REASON Y ME AND CHRIS COULD NEVER MOVE FORWARD IS BECAUSE WE LOOKED BACKWARD. NOT JUST WITH US BUT WE LOOKED BACKWARD ON PAST RELATIONSHIPS TO MAKE SURE IT DIDNT HAPPEN TO US AGAIN. I LOVE HIM AND ALWAYS WILL. HE IS THE LOVE OF MY LIFE. HE TREATED ME LIKE A QUEEN AND HE WAS MY KING. I JUST ASK GOD FOR ANOTHER CHANCE TO SHOW HIM THAT I AM AND WILL B THE WOMAN FOR HIM!  LATER AFTER WE BROKE UP MY PERIOD CAME AND STARTED BECOMING REAL HEAVY. I USE TO COMPLAIN TO CHRIS ABOUT HOW HEAVY MY PERIODS WERE AFTER I GOT OFF MY BIRTH CONTROL AND HE USE TO HOLD ME AND MASSAGE MY CRAMPS. BUT THIS TIME WE WERE BROKEN UP AND THE PAIN LASTED FOR DAYS.  I FINALLY WENT THE DOCTOR BECAUSE I REMEMBERED THAT THE MONTH ME AND CHRIS HAD SEX WITHOUT PROTECTION I DIDNT HAVE PERIOD! I WENT TO MY GYNECOLOGIST AND SHE INFORMED ME THAT I HAD A MISCARRIAGE. I CRIED…AND CRIED… SHE LET ME KNOW THAT THEIR WAS NO INTERNAL DAMAGE AND SINCE I WAS LESS THAN 3 MONTHS THEY COULD PERFORM THE SAME PROCEDURE AS A ABORTION. SO I WENT THROUGH THAT PROCESS ALL OVER AGAIN.  WHEN I GOT HOME THE PAIN IN MY HEART WAS WORSE. I TOLD CHRIS. BUT IM NOT SURE AT THAT MOMENT HE GAVE A DAMN. BUT I KNO IF I KNEW AND HE KNEW THAT IT WAS HIS CHILD IN MY WOMB. HE WOULD HAVE BEEN THEIR. I LOVE HIM FOREVER AND ALWAYS.

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