JOURNAL 7

JOURNAL 7

DID YOU KNOW BESIDES CHRISTMAS VALENTINES DAY WAS ONE OF THE GREATEST PERCENTAGES OF SUICIDE?AROUND THAT HOLIDAY IS WHEN MOST FEEL LONELY OR NEGLECTED.I DONT CELEBRATE VALENTINES DAY.
I GREW UP GETTING VALENTINES DAY GIFTS FROM MY DAD. BUT WHEN HIM AND MY MOTHER GOT DIVORCEED IT SEEMED LIKE HE DIVORCED ME AS WELL. HE LEFT WHEN I WAS ABOUT 8 YRS OLD. WHEN HE LEFT THE VALENTINES GIFTS LEFT WITH HIM.
GROWING AS A GIRL YOU LISTEN TO YOUR FATHER TELL YOU YOUR PRETTY EVERYDAY. SO THAT WHEN YOU LEAVE THE HOUSE WHEN SOMEONE ELSE TELLS YOU. ITS NOT THAT BIG OF A DEAL.

I NEVER GOT THAT FROM MY FATHER SO I WAS OUT LOOKING FOR ANYONE THAT COULD REPLACE THAT COMAPNIONSHIP MY FATHER NEVER GAVE AND WOULD GIVE ANYTHING TO GET IT. IN DOING THAT I FELL IN LOVE A MILLION TIMES. AS MANY RELATIONSHIPS AND BOYFRIENDS I HAD I NEVER SEEMED TO GET ANYTHING FOR VDAY.

MY FATHER CHEATED ON MY MOTHER AND EVERY GIFT HE WOULD GET ME. HE GOT HER. I REMEMBER MY FATHER FORGETTING TO GET ME SOMETHING FOR VDAY AND GIVING ME HER GIFT. HE WASNT SMART ENOUGH TO REMEMBER TO SCRATCH OUT HER NAME IN THE CARD. SO I HAVE A BACKGROUND OF BAD VDAYS. AND I DONT CELEBRATE THEM BUT AT EVEN IF THEY WERE GOOD. WOULDNT CELEBRATE THEM.

LOVE ALWAYS,
EXPRESSIONS

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